This photo has got to be one of my very favorites yet. I snagged it from a friend on Facebook who snagged it from Elephant Journal’s Facebook page so I have to give credit where credit is due! The tag line was a quote from Carl Sagan which said, ““The nitrogen in our DNA, the calcium in our teeth, the iron in our blood, the carbon in our apple pies were made in the interiors of collapsing stars. We are made of starstuff.”
I spend countless hours looking at the stars especially early in the morning before the busy day begins. It is my way of communicating with the universe and my way of evaluating my daily expectations. It is my moment of wonderment. It is my moment of intention and it is my moment, to dream. I think at times, my personal reflections become so important to me because I see the value in higher learner. Over the last three months, having had the time to make sacred space, having had the time decide for myself what truly makes me happy and having had the time to check in with myself, regardless of my emotional reactions toward person challenges, has proven successful. This past winter, I took the TIME and SPACE I needed to evaluate ME. The me I want to become. And can I tell you, it’s working.
It has been during these early morning meditation under the stars where I was able to let go of the resentment of leaving my career as a supportive business woman. I was able to let go of the fear that I could not become my own boss. My career identified me as a “productive and useful” person and I was the type of person that would come unglued if I was not busy doing something. I think in my old jobs, if I stopped too long to think about all that I WAS doing, it freaked me out emotionally. I always ended up being the one trying to fix, manage and control everything and everybody. Being my own boss will allow me to control myself and my workload.
It has also been during these early morning meditations, that I looked genuniely over any disagreements with family, friends, or other persons of interest. I was able to play back the situation in my mind, and look equally at the actions of each person, and ask myself, was I living my best highest good so I could be that example for others? Not always, but I tired! Others do make me quite erratic at times but deep thinkers such as myself, always wonder why people do what they do. I probably should not worry so much about it anymore because when we can keep our own feelings in tact, the reason people do what THEY do is irrelevant. I Thessalonians 4: 11-12 says:
11and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life and attend to your own business and work with your hands, just as we commanded you,12so that you will behave properly toward outsiders and not be in any need.
Now, if you think I am going to be “completely quiet” like this lil’ mime, then you are mistaken. 🙂 I am just going to be more mindful of my own thoughts and emotions before I share information and I am going to take the path to work with my hands just as I have been called to do. What other people need is entirely up to them but I cannot help but observe others around me. I have been called not only to practice Reiki and Minister to people in general, I have been called to speak, act and pray for positive outcomes in my own life as well as the lives of others.
Well, what about all this publicity and selfies and all these networking meetings over the last few months? That IS a part of who I am. My Stardust contains million of particles (called emotions) and those particles are connected to my intuitive receptors and my intuitive receptors tell me that I need to go to the next level. And before my Christian friends say, “Well, with every new level their is a new devil.” Posh, I say to that! I don’t dance with devils, I dance with the Stars! And for the next 6 weeks I will be in school continuing my higher learning as an adult by taking classes at Actors Theatre and finishing my studies as a Reiki Mater Teacher so I can start my public practice (again) and I can open workshops for those who want to find a better way healing.
And so we say, Break A Leg Holly Go-Lightly! May I enjoy this time of learning and growing with my family and I will see you all when I see you all!